Guilty Person

Is it jealousy
Or has loneliness made me lose balance
If grievances can be dispelled I am willing to wait all my life
Is it a misunderstanding
Or did I really go too far back then
I may have hurt you before
And you've remembered the grudges for half a lifetime

There's still a little
Vivid crack
There's still a little
That makes people hurt
I'm not willing to be indulgent with you
I don't want to get acquainted
When you bump into me it seems like you're meeting a stranger
You avoid the gleam of my eyes with your utmost strength
You seem to be detained by guilt and will only come too close
How can we get acquainted?
A lot of extremes
How is this treating me equally?
Alone I am a guilty person
I'm seeking an agreement
A very long fight
I'm seeking freedom; I have already gained many lessons

Is it degeneration
Or is reality already gradually forcing me into a corner
It's a bit cold-blooded
I've not yet gone to analyse the result
Is it loneliness
Or is it that in the future I don't want to tragically meet with
Being treated coldly
Have you said before
That you are still loving me?